What a crazy day!

Well today  they discontinued the pilot program I and 19 others were hired to do. To compensate for that they layed off 20+ people and moved us "lucky" ones to customer service. Altho I am very thankful I still have a job it is so disheartening to have the program our team worked so hard at fail. I feel a great loss for my team members that no longer have a job. I lost part of my family and I have "survivors" remorse. It will not be the same and I do not look forward to the awkward feeling when I return to work tomorrow.

Just when you think you see the light at the end of the tunnel it burns out!

Baltimore

I have been so busy since I got back from Baltimore. I have not had time to blog about my trip until now. It was not that exciting to be quit honest but it was an experience.  We spent a lot of time walking back and forth to the Harbor. I did enjoy all the walking and the Harbor. Our hotel was pretty lame. It did not have much to offer not even a swimming pool. Our first full day there it was 108 outside and no way to cool off unless you wanted to be stuck indoors.  At the Harbor they have a ton of shops and restaurants, Ships, the National Aquarium and water Taxi's. Oh yeah and great people watching opportunities =)

My co-worker Tara and I went to the National aquarium. It takes about 4 hours to walk through the entire exhibit. We only had about 45 min because we had tickets to see the Dolphin show. I enjoyed seeing the dolphins, it was the first time I have seen them in real life. I was disappointed that the show only lasted about 35 min. I guess it was long enough to take good pictures and now I can mark it off my to do list.

Our hotel was across the street from Camden Yards. The stadium of the Baltimore Orioles. We did not get to see a game while we were there, but it made a good place to take pictures. The stadium is on Eutaw Street. I thought it was funny, even funnier to hear them pronounce it (ew-tah) I took a picture next the the 33 because that is my age, not because of who wears that number. I actually don't even know who does.

Our last night in Baltimore they had the Anime Convention. Yay cheap entertainment!!! Those kids get so into it it's almost creepy. We did see it as another great photo op and could not resist getting our picture taken with some of them.

I was never so glad to get out of that city, even more glad that I don't think I will need to go back any time soon. So I was able to mark 3 things of my to do list.

1- Go to Baltimore

2- See Dolphins in real life

3- Get caught in the middle of a freak show.

Done, Done and Done!!

                                            Random pictures

ONE YEAR AGO.

I remember that day as if it was today, the phone call, the words from my father, the shaking and crying out of control. I feel it as if it happened today. I dreaded  Birthday's and Christmas, they came and  went. I told my self 3,6,9 months it will get easier..

Here I am with a lump in my throat, my chest feels tight and I can barely breath. I have her picture and ashes on my shelf, it's hardly a place for me to grieve.

One year ago today, god saw her getting tired and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around her and whispered come to me. I was not with her when she passed away, even though I loved her dearly, I couldn't have made her stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart that day to prove to me, he only takes the best.....

I miss our daily conversations, I miss hearing her laugh. Everyday I still want to call her and tell her about my day.  I miss hearing her say her favorite cuss words- Bird brain, Chicken shit and Horses roofis. LOL! (yes she called me that many times).

I still catch my self shaking my head when I think about her being gone, it's still so weird to me. Split seccond denial I think.... I am so grateful that I came accros tapes she recorder of her self singing. I am blessed that I can still  hear her voice.  Miss her today as much as I did the day she passed away.....

I Love you mom, always will!!